N is (as promised) for Nancy (by Nancy)

Note: Nancy is my wife and I couldn’t think of any better way to write about her than to let her speak in her own words. Therefore, I’ve asked her permission, and received it, to repost her latest blog post here and to provide a link to her blog, Running and Rambling.

Clarity and Re-orientation by Nancy

In a mere eight weeks I have gone from the depths of depression to the heights of contentment. I can only describe the ride as emotional whiplash. At the bottom, despair mired me in complete darkness. At the top, blackness gave way to glaring sunshine and lighter steps.

One of the repercussions of coming out of a depression is the disorientation of being present again. Depression detached me from my mind and body. Today I am reacquainting myself with my skin, my feelings, and the multitude of thoughts that barrage my mind.

With the help of my therapist, I am sorting out the rapid ride from bottom to top and how to adjust back into the land of the living. There are days when I am so high that I border on manic. On those days my mind races, I pulse with frenetic energy, I over-focus, and I feel semi-invincible. I try to recognize the signs and slow my mind and movements to a more controlled pace. Not always a manageable task.

I have a fabulous team of caring support professionals continuing to help me through my recovery and guiding me back to a healthier place in life. They have seen me through the highs and the lows and still they let me back in their offices.EmotionalRollercoaster2JPG

 

5 thoughts on “N is (as promised) for Nancy (by Nancy)

  1. Powerful words, Nancy! So happy for you, that you’ve found your way back from the dark. I have been coming out of a nearly 2 year depression for about a year now. I’m out, so to speak… but the repercussions are indeed daunting at times. In some of my posts, I used the roller coaster image as well; it’s so dead on! Thanks for sharing your personal experience and i hope you continue to enjoy the light. 😉

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